ALMOST FAMOUS v.2 review
Published at: Sept. 13, 2000, 11:40 p.m. CST by headgeek
I just had a very poignant ‘eureka’ moment at my
second viewing of Cameron Crowe’s ALMOST
FAMOUS....
Everyone is looking at this film right now on the most
superficial levels... My first review... shit. It’s all so
incredibly clear now for me.... and I can’t believe I
didn’t see this movie at all the first time I saw it.
This isn’t about a young fan getting to interview and
hang out with a rock-n-roll band... that’s not the
movie that made Cameron Crowe say that this is his
most deeply personal film yet.
This film... the events, the journey that his character
goes through... The band, the music... even the
girls... that’s all set dressing... that’s the big boat and
the iceberg and all the lost souls in the water....
This movie is about that moment that forever changed
Cameron Crowe’s life. The turning point. The place
in life where he suddenly found his calling, his drive
and his muse. This is a birth of Cameron’s life and it
all changed here.
These are those events for him.
And as I saw them unfold tonight, for whatever
strange personal association way... I saw this William
kid... I saw me... 1996... the Dobie theater. The rock
stars.... Quentin Tarantino, Robert Rodriguez,
Richard Linklater. The girls... I’ll call them
Rapunzel, Cinderella and Barbarella. The kid with
the marker... Quint. Me... I was just a hobbled
fanboy. Two canes in both hands...
I was just coming off being paralyzed... I had just
begun writing on the site... only 3 months before.
That accident for me, reduced me to an emotional
state where I figured I would never be known, noone
would ever love me and that I would just forever be
that guy that people passed and would laugh about
later. I didn’t drink, smoke or do drugs. And besides
my father I was pretty much alone.
Now... this is pretty much the exact same situation
that our fictional ‘William’ found himself in. I had
had girlfriends prior to my accident, but with my legs
just barely working... unable to drive and having to
have Dad walk closely to make sure I didn’t fall...
well, I might as well just put the ‘Loser’ sign on me,
and leave it at that...
I didn’t go to that Tarantino Film Fest to hob nob
with Quentin or Robert or Rick... I went because I
loved the movies... I always have and imagine I
always will.
My life was very low for me. I was not happy with it,
and I wanted to change it. I needed to do something
useful with myself... something to fill my days. And
when I bought my pass for Quentin’s first film fest...
It was just a furlough to fill that time. What
happened over that next ten days... sitting in that
Egyptian room on second row, second seat from the
right side of the aisle... changed my life.
Now I know that sounds ludicrous, but for this
William character in ALMOST FAMOUS... a Black
Sabbath concert changed his life...
It wasn’t sage advice from Quentin... He was the
rock star... The Movie star, director thing. And from
my second row seat I saw him spill electric
charismatic silly love for film in that room. He
wasn’t screaming out, “I AM A GOLDEN GOD!!!!,”
but he did scream out while wasted on beer, Jack
Daniels and a plum jar of moonshine.... “BURT
REYNOLDS IS A SWEATY FUCKING GOD!!!”
And the audience cheered as he backed into the
screen and could barely hold his head up right. The
three females I mentioned... they were directly
charged by what they witnessed... pure unadulterated
fans... Not throwing their bodies at Quentin, Quentin
had Mira Sorvino with him at the time. But they were
there... everyday... 2 hours early... and we’d sit in the
food court of the Dobie Mall and we’d chat and talk...
we’d tell our secrets, wishes, lives until that point.
They invited me to join their group... At the party that
ended it all.... they’d switch places sitting on my lap
and playing like in love.... It was silly wonderful
fun... and Quentin and Robert and Rick... and
especially Quentin... was just so damn cool.
And I could see that affect me, them... everyone
around... And when I’d look at the three gals look at
Quentin, and saw this... not desire... but hypnotic
glazed over sense of glee and happiness to just be in
the very presence of.
When Quentin left... I stayed in contact, but the
moments just were not as electric as when Quentin
was in the room. One of the girls I fell deeply and
helplessly puppy dog in love with.... still am, truth be
told... and in some weird misbegotten manner, my
little simian brain told me that I needed to be famous,
successful... COOL.
For I was painfully UNCOOL.
Heh, I have a site that asks the question of me
everyday.... AINT IT COOL... and I’ve had moments,
but am I intrinsically cool? No. In my natural at ease
manner... am I cool? I don’t think so. I’m Harry
Knowles... BIG FAN... But there is a perception to
some that I am cool, that this site and this person that
types and that I have become cool. I’m not. Because
when I look in those girls eyes... when I talk and
when I speak, they laugh... they giggle... they flirt...
But it isn’t that same look.
And when my sister looks at Tarantino and
Rodriguez... they’re cool.... perhaps someday I will
be. And I think that this movie... is about Cameron
Crowe... and his starting place... That moment in his
life where he wanted to be more than who he was.
Where he wanted to have his Penny Lane look at him
with that same adoring worship, cause that’s the way
he looked at her.
Today when I look at my Penny Lane... I have that
look and someday if I’m lucky I’ll see it staring right
back at me. I look in other eyes, other faces... and
hope I recognize that look... and reciprocate it.
ALMOST FAMOUS... heh... What a perfect name
for folks like me, journalists... critics... those that
write about the famous. We write and reflect and
study and rub shoulders with... It does make us feel
cool, but still you can’t have that all the time. You
come back to your lair... you still end up alone in that
room with that keyboard and all those observations
and thoughts... And you type and spill what dances in
your mind for others to read, watch and listen to.
At some point, Cameron Crowe changed... made the
turn... got tired of writing about the famous and
about others’ works of art and created his own. From
watching ALMOST FAMOUS the second time... I
guarantee he still thinks about his Penny Lane as he
writes and directs.... edits and posts.... Somewhere in
his head she is still his initial muse...
My muse... she’s still around, I still talk with her on
the phone... share moments of my life with her...
check the eyes. I so wish I’d see what I want to see
there... but I will continue to write about the
reflections I see.... other people’s stories and maybe
someday I’ll do that... but not for awhile... I’m not
ready for that yet.
NOW... you want proof... It’s well established that
Cameron Crowe wrote this William to be him. Now
think as you watch this film how emotionally raw the
film is for Cameron.... the scene in the bathroom...
mere seconds before the lovely ‘let’s deflower the
child’ moment... He grabs Penny... puts his hands on
her shoulders... looks into her eyes and says, “Penny,
I know that I’m not famous, but...” then he’s grabbed.
When he is trying to keep her awake... he steals what
he feels is his only chance to kiss her.... and tells her
semi-catatonic self that he loves her. He can tell
everyone but her that he loves her... and at the end of
the film.....
HE STILL HASN’T TOLD HER HE LOVES HER...
Now... wherever Ms Penny Lane is... Whatever
theater she see’s her William’s movie in... She’ll
know he loves her because this entire movie is a love
letter to an unrequited love that motivated everything
in his life.
Or maybe that’s just a self-reflection of how I
interpret this film. Now you talk back monsters... get
to ripping my soul apart and laying waste to how
pathetic and UNCOOL I am... I’m fairly bare.
And Mr Crowe... if you happen to read this... If this
wasn’t what you were doing, thanks for making a
work that I could interpret in this manner... cause it
allowed me to say to my Penny Lane what I needed to
say.